For 18 and a half years, I was confident in my job and my skills. I could answer questions all day long about policies, procedures and the products that we carried (in a retail field). Then I reached my breaking point and decided to change careers. Everything is new, except the customer service aspect. I’mContinue reading “Self Doubt is Not Good for My Stomach”
Author Archives: E. E. Wildwood
How Is It?
How is it that my life seems to be coming together and the rest of the world seems to be falling apart? I’ve retreated from the world at large while I’ve been focusing on balancing my life – with a new job that I love, my own personal growth, and trying to stand in myContinue reading “How Is It?”
It’s Here.
This is the time of year that my descent into Hell begins. Bitterly cold, grey, dark days. Even though I know intellectually that the Solstice has passed and the days are, in fact, getting longer, I feel trapped in the darkness. The endless pull of overcast skies. The bone-chilling deep freeze that keeps me inContinue reading “It’s Here.”
Odd Man Out
I feel alienated. Do you ever feel that way? Like you are an afterthought and not the primary choice? Even in a group where I know that I am loved; I feel like I’m the odd man out. Ignored. This is one of the reasons that I tend to retreat. I feel irrelevant. Is itContinue reading “Odd Man Out”
Happy New Year from Costa Rica!
We (the husband and I) are celebrating New Year’s with my sister and her family in beautiful Costa Rica! As always, I find myself reflecting upon the last year and the lessons it taught me. 2021 saw me lose my beloved mother to lung & liver cancer. It was a short battle, lasting a mereContinue reading “Happy New Year from Costa Rica!”
Breaking Points
I have reached and perhaps, surpassed, a breaking point within the last week. Which can only mean that it’s time to move up and onward. I have been with the same company for 18 and a half years. Several different roles, but still in the retail environment, and in the same location. Last Monday wasContinue reading “Breaking Points”
Being Kind to Myself
There are many things that I struggle internally with. The latest, is being kind to myself. What does that look like exactly? I’ve been working on my self-talk and really paying attention to what I say to and about myself. Which is a hard task, when the habit to put myself down has been ingrainedContinue reading “Being Kind to Myself”
HouseBound
Seven days. I’ve been housebound for seven days. While it seems like it would be a nice treat to be off of work for a week, I literally feel like I’ve done nothing. Monday, I had some blood work done and a Covid-19 test – not pleasant at all. Then straight home to quarantine, untilContinue reading “HouseBound”
Oh My Gods…
Quarantine. Day Three. I’ve finished reading my current read. No desire to watch TV/Netflix/Prime. I’m home alone and fresh out of ideas. Waiting for a pre-op phone call in approximately seven minutes. Surgery tomorrow; recovery on the weekend, before heading back to work on Monday. Sleeping in has been nice. Living in my pj’s hasContinue reading “Oh My Gods…”
Life’s a Beach
A perfect day at the beach today! I forgot sunscreen, so I’m a very lovely shade of red, but it was worth it to recharge by the water. There’s something soothing in being near water, toes in the sand… I will sleep well tonight!
E. E. Wildwood 