coping – E. E. Wildwood

I Was Told NO.

Indulge me, if you will, for just a moment. My whole life changed when I was seven years old. My particular trauma? My Dad left us. This was not an everyday occurrence in the early 80’s. In fact – we were the exception. I was the outcast at school. I was an original latchkey kid.Continue reading “I Was Told NO.”

I Saw Myself Today

It was her. I hadn’t seen her in years, but I recognized her immediately. It was a glimmer to let me know that she was still there. She has been buried by seemingly a lifetime of heartache, struggle and survival. It was her. I saw her and smiled. “There you are. I’ve missed you.” IContinue reading “I Saw Myself Today”

Keeping On

A lot has happened since last I wrote. A mad dash trip to Costa Rica, to visit my sister in her declining health before she passed away at the end of February. Two promotions at work. My 50th birthday. A trip with 3 of my best friends. My youngest son moved out and far away.Continue reading “Keeping On”

Brian Wilsoning

I started using this as a coping mechanism when I was really depressed. A Brian Wilson day. You know, like the Beach Boy, Brian Wilson? He supposedly stayed in bed for a year. I do it for a day. Coming out to forage for food, and bathroom breaks. I’ve had a rough two weeks atContinue reading “Brian Wilsoning”

I’m Struggling

I’m not going to lie and I’m not trying to hide it. I’m struggling with my mental health right now. Here in Ontario, we are into our second lockdown with Covid-19. There’s a provincial Stay-At-Home order. There are a limited number of valid reasons to leave your house, and that’s it. Plus, it’s winter –Continue reading “I’m Struggling”