Odd Man Out

I feel alienated. Do you ever feel that way? Like you are an afterthought and not the primary choice? Even in a group where I know that I am loved; I feel like I’m the odd man out. Ignored. This is one of the reasons that I tend to retreat. I feel irrelevant. Is it all in my head? I try to be a good friend and reach out to people to let them know that I’m thinking of them and am interested in their lives – and nothing is reciprocated. I try to be the best person that I can be, and am left empty-handed. Is there something wrong with me? Is it all in my head? My insecurities, rearing their ugly heads? I wish I knew and I wish I could turn it off.

For now, I will retreat.