I started using this as a coping mechanism when I was really depressed. A Brian Wilson day. You know, like the Beach Boy, Brian Wilson? He supposedly stayed in bed for a year. I do it for a day. Coming out to forage for food, and bathroom breaks.
I’ve had a rough two weeks at work, plus a physical health issue that cropped up and sent me to the hospital for an afternoon. I am physically, mentally, and spiritually spent. As in, I can give no more. I have nothing left in my tanks or reserves. I am beyond exhausted.
Yesterday, I managed to help my husband briefly. I managed to shower. I managed to go for a walk. I managed to watch a movie on Netflix. Today – all of that seems to require more than I have left. Therefore, it was the perfect storm for a Brian Wilson day – which, I haven’t done in a very long time.
It consists of sleeping in. It consists of scrolling through my socials. It means a few messages to loved ones. I come out for food. Still in my pj’s. It consists of cuddling with the dog, or cat. It consists of bathroom breaks. I did manage to get in about 45 minutes of Italian lessons on Duolingo. I had planned to get out for some exercise. I got out the clothes to do it and just couldn’t even get dressed. It seems a monumental task.
My mental state isn’t doom and gloom. It’s tired. It’s all about my energy levels and the lack thereof.
It’s back to work tomorrow; regardless of my perceived energy levels. That’s what I do. I am a high functioning depressive. I will get up at 5 am when my alarm goes off and I will do what I need to do, including eight very active hours at work. I will plow through; praying to all the gods that the day goes quickly.
How do you recharge when your batteries are low? Any tips or tricks for me?
E. E. Wildwood 